because that moon looked lonely...
an introductory post!
“done is better than perfect” is a phrase i have been trying to live by ever since i heard it (thank you namjoon). because done is better than perfect. and yet, it’s something i struggle with on a day-to-day basis. i am constantly (constantly!!!) fighting the urge to let things go because i simply am not perfect enough, not good enough at them.
i’ve always loved to write, for as long as i can remember. stories, thoughts, anything and everything, whether completely [incoherent] or not, it’s just something i’ve loved doing. i love the process, the words, the sitting down and typing or picking up a pen and putting it to paper. but i hate what comes out of it. i hate the way my sentences can look crooked, or awkward, not as smooth and polished as i want them to. so i stopped. much like a Lot of things in my life.
but in the recent years and due to a certain event you might (ha!) know as the 21st century’s most infamous cursed phenomenon (the panini herself), i’ve come to terms with the reality of things which is : i love doing a lot of things and i’m bad at most of them… and that’s okay. because like mary oliver said in wild geese, a poem i’ve come to keep extremely close to my heart :
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
and the soft animal of my body loves to write, and whisper scream about the things i enjoy, the books i’ve loved and the museums i’ve recently visited, the cakes i’ve baked and the little things (oh how i love love love the little things)
this newsletter, in reference to bts’ jungkook’s song ‘still with you’, in its own way is the vow i’m making to myself that i’m still with myself. that i can do what i want, including write corny reviews about the poems that shattered my soul and the songs i’ve listened to that made me feel alive (alas!). that i do not have to be good.
i’m still with myself, still with you.
what i loved reading this week
before the coffee gets cold by toshikazu kawaguchi : (ok technically this wasn’t this week, i read this last month but shhh don’t tell) this book brought me so much joy and comfort. it’s a story celebrating love and the passing of time; about remembrance as well as holding on and letting go of the people you love.
sadie by courtney summers : (check the tw) it’s rare for a book to leave me feeling so hollow and numb but this is exactly what reading sadie felt like. had a hard time trying to get back to earth and leave sadie behind, her pain, her burning anger and her stolen innocence. i won’t forget you sadie.
random things i’ve been enjoying
don’t leave me by bts : don’t ask me why, it’s just a Really Really good song
dedicating a notebook to keep track of the art around me : it’s easy to get lost in all the exhibitions happening around me and all the names of different artists i want to learn about, so keeping track of this using a tiny notebook i carry everywhere with me has been a great addition to my life !
this playlist !
lots of love,
noa <3
i rly love the second poem ("kindness") you shared!! i hadn't heard of that poet before, gonna check out more of her work ^^
i love that <3